We have suffered much with the members of the Gnostic Movement. Many have sworn fidelity in front of the altar of the sanctuaries; many have solemnly promised to work in the Great Work until total Self-realization; many are those who have cried swearing to never ever withdraw from the Gnostic Movement; however, it is painful to say, everything has been in vain. Almost everyone fled; they became enemies, blaspheming, fornicating, committing adultery, and went onto the black path. Really, the human being’s terrible contradictions are due to him having a fatal foundation and a tragic basis; the said foundation is the plurality of the “I,” the plurality of the loose cathexis that we all carry within.
It is urgent to know that the “I” is a mass of psychic energies, of loose cathexes, which reproduce in the lower animal depths of the human being. Each loose cathexis is a small “I” that enjoys certain auto-independence.
These “I’s,” these loose cathexes, struggle amongst themselves. “I should read a newspaper,” says the intellectual “I.” “I will ride a bicycle,” argues the motor “I,” “I am hungry,” declares the “I” of digestion. “I am cold,” says the “I” of metabolism. “No one will stop me,” exclaims the passionate “I” when in defense of the other loose cathexes.
Conclusion, the “I” is a legion of loose cathexes. These loose cathexes have already been studied by Franz Hartmann. They live in the lower animal depths of the human being; they eat, sleep, reproduce, and live at the expense of our vital principles or free cathexis (muscular and nervous kinetic energy). Each of the “I’s” (which in their conjunction constitute the loose cathexis or the “I”) projects itself in the different levels of the mind and travels, longing for the satisfaction of its desires. The “I”, the ego, the loose cathexis, can never perfect itself.
The human being is the city of nine gates... Within this city live many citizens who do not even know each other. Each of these citizens, each of those small “I’s,” has its own projects and its own mind; those are the merchants that Jesus had to cast out of the temple with the whip of willpower. Those merchants must be killed.
Now we will understand the reason for so many internal contradictions in the individual. As long as the loose cathexis exists, there can be no peace. The “I’s” are the causa causorum of all our internal contradictions. The “I” that swears fidelity to Gnosis is replaced by another that hates it! Conclusion, the present human being is an irresponsible entity who does not have a Permanent Center of Gravity. The present human being is a being that is not yet completed!
The present manlike being is not yet human; he is merely an intellectual animal. It is a very grave error to call the legion of the “I” the “soul.” In fact, what the manlike being has is the psychic material, the material for the soul within his Essence, but indeed, he does not have a Soul yet.
The Gospels state, “Of what use is it to win the world if you are going to lose your soul?” Jesus told Nicodemus that it is necessary to be born from water and the spirit in order to enjoy the attributes that correspond to a true soul. It is impossible to fabricate a soul if we do not undergo Mystical Death.
It is only through the death of the “I” that we can establish a Permanent Center of Consciousness within our own interior Essence; such center is called a Soul. Only a human being with a Soul can have true continuity of purpose. It is only within a human being who has a Soul that internal contradictions do not exist. True inner peace exists within him.
The “I” foolishly spends the psychic material, the cathexis, in explosions of anger, covetousness, lust, envy, pride, laziness, gluttony, etc. It is logical that as long as the psychic material, the cathexis, does not accumulate, the Soul cannot be fabricated. In order to fabricate something, one needs the raw matter; without the raw matter, nothing can be fabricated, because from nothing, nothing can be obtained.
When the “I” begins to die, the raw matter begins to accumulate. When the raw matter begins to accumulate, the establishment of a Center of Permanent Consciousness is initiated. When the “I” has absolutely died, the Center of Permanent Consciousness has been totally established.
The capital of psychic material accumulates when the ego dies since the squanderer of energy is eliminated. In this manner, the Permanent Center of Consciousness is established. Such a marvelous center is the Soul.
Only the one who has established within himself the Permanent Center of Consciousness can be faithful to Gnosis; only he can have continuity of purpose. Those who do not possess such a center can be in Gnosis today and against it tomorrow; today with one school, tomorrow with another. This type of person does not have a real existence.
Mystical death is an arduous and difficult area of the revolution of the dialectic.
The loose cathexis is dissolved on the basis of rigorous comprehension. Interaction with our fellowmen, dealing with people, is the mirror in which we can see ourselves at full length. In dealing with people our hidden defects leap forth, they flourish, and if we are vigilant, we can then see them.
Every defect must first be intellectually analyzed and then studied with meditation.
Many individuals attained perfect chastity in the physical world, but ended up being great fornicators and frightening sinners when they were subjected to the test in the superior worlds. They had put an end to their defects in the physical world, but in other levels of the mind, they continued with their loose cathexis.
When a defect is totally comprehended in all the levels of the mind, its corresponding loose cathexis disintegrates, in other words, a small “I” dies.
It is urgent to die from moment to moment. The Soul is born with the death of the “I.” We need the death of the “I” in a total manner in order for the plenitude of the bound cathexis, the Being, to express himself.
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